After 10 years +10 and 10 again I am still at a loss as to why it is the people I want in my life are so far away and yet the ones I could do without keep chasing me. I have finally resolved myself to the fact that love is the worst of all the human emotions. It leads you blind into the realms of delusion where you live out each day as though you have no care in the world and everything is beautiful and happiness is the stem of all your endeavors. Then slowly reality creeps in and as much as one may try to hold on to the cliff face eventually the pains of holding on seem more painful then the prospect of letting go..

Then you fall down the rock face being battered and bruised with every slip to eventuate as a mangled and tortured pathetic heap of misery. Left to gaze up at those fortunate enough to have built there castles from up where you just fell.

It is at this point one is able to see the bareness of there own reflection stripped of the flatteries which once clothed it in a shroud of fancy adornments. The cruelness of reality's picture too hard to view for long.

Love now is just a near deathly pain which aches relentlessly throughout ones very soul, the pain of which usually too insurmountable to bear causes the fallen to search desperately for yet another delusion to shroud themselves once again so when they sight there own reflection they are not crippled by the true reflection of the singularity of self

Happy Valentines day!